Oh, dear. I think I'm going to cry, tonight.

You know when your head is full of thoughts and you feel it’ll explode in any second? And when it explodes you just want to blabber out everything you were thinking of, but you don’t tell anyone with the fear of what they’ll think of you? Or what you think they think of you? That’s my head all the time.

But what if you did just say everything in mind? And no one has said anything? Would your head fill up again? Would it fill up with questions this time? Or would you just go blank? … Then fill up again with thoughts of why you’re blank? What if you never thought? And there’s my head again.

Who? What? Where? When? How? WHY?

“Why?”… Why is the earth round? Why don’t I like sushi? Why do we breathe air? Why religion? Why time? Why aren’t my eyes blue? Why south? Why north? Why keep it a secret? Why do I like orange juice without sugar? Why fight? Why bother? Why ask him if he’s okay? Why tell the truth? Why smile? Why cry? Why live? Why think? Why WHY?

So many questions. And unbelievably, all the questions can be answered with one simple phrase, and fill up your head once again.

“I don’t know.”

Attention. A word everyone can understand. A noun everyone wants… at least once in a while. But if everyone clearly wants it, why is it that everyone who has it is uses it for unimportant stuff? (Or at least unimportant to the person without the attention.)

I don’t know.

Queue my point!

Exactly.

Lies

Tell me a person who fails to lie; just ONE. None in mind? None in mind.

Self-contradiction? Lie.

We live a life a lies.

And don't lie when I say we lie all the time, cuz you're just lying!

Heck!
I'm a Liar!
Deal with it!
Lair!

Famous Last Words II

War- ...no, not war...pain.

Pain- Told as of today, a year ago.
Year- Of thoughts, tears, deception.
Deception- By myself. By him.
Him- an unforgettable friend.
Friend- Person of confidence.
Confidence- Trust, reliability.
Trust- What I want back.
What I want back- No war.
War- Pain.

Tell me you don't care; I'll tell you the same. Hypothetically, of course; but I'd say it. I'm glad you're glad. Memories will flood my head, but it's in the past now. No one's fault; just someone's "deception".

A lesson learned, but not overcome. You are this thing I call my shadow. Not the best memory I have of you; but it's not the worst either.

Dead to me, but alive in heart.

Famous Last Words I

Let it burn! Make a bonfire! Dance around it drinking vodka, I dont care! You're dead to me now... October 1st? Another day to learn from! Lessons of life! Time passes fast and I'm gonna make the best of it! You might come to mind once in a while but it'll be over before you know it.

Heck! There have been 2 world wars, and the world hasn't ended!!
Peace BITCH!

Lolz!

Sleep...

to not think:

Science telling us the day the world will end.
War and Hatred is abundant among all.
Death approaching in many ways, natural and unnatural.
Good news, bad news... news!
It gets to us one way and leaves in another.
Look out the window.
Wind is blowing uncontrollably.
Can we fix it? No!
Time is slipping!
Past, Present, Future.
Words that come and never go!

Y ahora...

Thinking thoughts... Lost in thought... Thinking so much...
Past, Present, Future...
Love, Hate...
Pressure, Happiness...

Happiness: "an emotional or affective state that is characterized by feelings of enjoyment, pleasure, and satisfaction"
... or letting go and not thinking...

Let's go and think a lil' bit...
=]

The Number 23 (The.Year)

My 23rd blog entry...

23 is known to be a mystic number.
Just read here: http://afgen.com/numbr23b.html

I just find the number weird. This day a year ago (23/9/06 = 23 - 9 / 6 = 2.333333333) was the last time I hung out with my former best friend (which name all added up comes to 23 as well). Seriously I wanted to make this day a whole fuss, relating it to the number 23. But my mind is totally blank. Just watch the movie 23 and make as I had wrote something for this particular friend, thinking that one day he'll read this and reflect a little...

I'm done...

See you Oct. 1st

BTW... My b-day 8-5-91 = 23 (8+5+9+1)lol

Do I know?...

My thoughts run wild, think about anything and everything. Do I know what I want? Is it clear to me who I am from when I wake up to the second I fall asleep? Do they listen to me? Am I emotionally fine? Do I change according to seasons or to days? Am I wake? Should I do this? Should I do that? My head spinning and spinning... stops. I come back to the world, as the normal person I am. And try to concentrate yet again.