and yet again...

...i'm thinking of the past...


...but this time i'm smiling.

Throughout out this year of many many tears, pain, and thinking my life is a piece of shit I've noticed that i was absolutely wrong about my life. I mean, this year I made friends, lost friends, hated friends, loved friends and yet I kept thinking my life was crap; but that's how selfish I can be. But I'm gonna put this year behind me, cuz I only thought of my self... and i'm surprised.

but i've learned from my mistakes, and trust me
i'll be back to basics.

i said i wanted to be his friend again, he said "the truth is, i dont care about you anymore"

K: "i know... that's why i want to be your friend"
E: "for what?"

"For what?"! You have the damn nerve to ask me why the fuck I want to be friend again?!

This HURT. It hurt more than the day that we stopped talking... How could I have seen something in you?! How the hell did you become my bet friend?! WHAT WAS I THINKING!? And here I am crying in front of a damn computer screen for one motherfucking reason! All I can say is that I just hope you have a great motherfucking life... WTF am I saying!! Whatever I say wont do anything on him cuz he doesn't fucking care! GRRRRRR! COÑO! DAmn EVERYTHING! EVERYTHING CAN GO TO FUCKING HELL FOR ALL I CARE!

WHY THE FUCK DOESN'T HE CARE!!?? WHY IS HE SUCH A MOTHERFUCKING JERK?! I'M FUCKING HURT! AND FUCKING DAMN TRAGICALLY, THIS FUCKING ASS DAY WILL NOT EVER LEAVE MY MEMORIES!

FUCK YOU ALL!

Lucky You...

Funny... you got 3 numbers; I wonder if you remember why you ever played the lottery...

Grrrrrrrr! Get out! Get out! Get out!