It's unfair...

Everyday one person dies... Some days, even more than one...

It's just not fair who dies!

There are people in this world who just deserve to die!! And only the most loved ones, those people that did NOTHING to deserve death; people that could have changed the world, just go away in a blink of an eye!

It's depressing to hear the news everyday, and that EVERY SINGLE DAY SOME ONE INNOCENT DIES!

UNFAIR!

I don't know anyone of them and I suffer. Cant you just imagine what that person's family and friends feel like? It must be HELL!

I'm seriously bummed and frustrated thinking about this...

It's UNFAIR!!

Excuses

...Why do we use them? Is it another way to bend the truth? But, didn't I tell you the truth? The pure and simple truth? You, of all people, should know that the truth is barely pure and far from simple. So you do know this? Then, why is this feeling so complicated? Why do I feel like one of us will end up killing ourselves for one another? Why am I hesitating on this? Aren't I always trying to make my life perfect? Aren't I always imagining how my life should start out? All magicly and story-like? How am I letting this opportunity pass by? What's wrong with me? I think I'm trying to convince myself that my life will never be perfect. No, no... I'm trying to convince myself that I'm something I've always wanted to be. I'm trying to convince myself that "It's so hard being me." A bunch of crap I know isn't true. I want to know the origin of this "my life sucks" shit.

De aqui es que surgen los problemas psicologicas y la depresion. Tantos enrredos de la cabeza, tanto pensar. Y yo misma me pongo a pensar "Como es que la gente se puede volver loca??"... mientras que yo me siento aqui, volviendome victima lentamente.

Damn Growing Pains...

Trying so hard not to scream...

I think so much, it sickens me. The worst thing is that I think and think and think andstill make the wrong decisions... It's like all the thinking was for nothing.

I want everything to be so perfect in my life, and I try so hard.. then it just goes wrong...

I'm gonna end up killing myself one day...

No.. I wont.. but I'll end up as an old depressive hag with a million cats...

I just feel so soffacated. I can't even think anymore... and that's not a good thing...

ay ay ayy... damn growing pains!

Oh, dear. I think I'm going to cry, tonight.

You know when your head is full of thoughts and you feel it’ll explode in any second? And when it explodes you just want to blabber out everything you were thinking of, but you don’t tell anyone with the fear of what they’ll think of you? Or what you think they think of you? That’s my head all the time.

But what if you did just say everything in mind? And no one has said anything? Would your head fill up again? Would it fill up with questions this time? Or would you just go blank? … Then fill up again with thoughts of why you’re blank? What if you never thought? And there’s my head again.

Who? What? Where? When? How? WHY?

“Why?”… Why is the earth round? Why don’t I like sushi? Why do we breathe air? Why religion? Why time? Why aren’t my eyes blue? Why south? Why north? Why keep it a secret? Why do I like orange juice without sugar? Why fight? Why bother? Why ask him if he’s okay? Why tell the truth? Why smile? Why cry? Why live? Why think? Why WHY?

So many questions. And unbelievably, all the questions can be answered with one simple phrase, and fill up your head once again.

“I don’t know.”

Attention. A word everyone can understand. A noun everyone wants… at least once in a while. But if everyone clearly wants it, why is it that everyone who has it is uses it for unimportant stuff? (Or at least unimportant to the person without the attention.)

I don’t know.

Queue my point!

Exactly.

Lies

Tell me a person who fails to lie; just ONE. None in mind? None in mind.

Self-contradiction? Lie.

We live a life a lies.

And don't lie when I say we lie all the time, cuz you're just lying!

Heck!
I'm a Liar!
Deal with it!
Lair!

Famous Last Words II

War- ...no, not war...pain.

Pain- Told as of today, a year ago.
Year- Of thoughts, tears, deception.
Deception- By myself. By him.
Him- an unforgettable friend.
Friend- Person of confidence.
Confidence- Trust, reliability.
Trust- What I want back.
What I want back- No war.
War- Pain.

Tell me you don't care; I'll tell you the same. Hypothetically, of course; but I'd say it. I'm glad you're glad. Memories will flood my head, but it's in the past now. No one's fault; just someone's "deception".

A lesson learned, but not overcome. You are this thing I call my shadow. Not the best memory I have of you; but it's not the worst either.

Dead to me, but alive in heart.

Famous Last Words I

Let it burn! Make a bonfire! Dance around it drinking vodka, I dont care! You're dead to me now... October 1st? Another day to learn from! Lessons of life! Time passes fast and I'm gonna make the best of it! You might come to mind once in a while but it'll be over before you know it.

Heck! There have been 2 world wars, and the world hasn't ended!!
Peace BITCH!

Lolz!