Old post on draft.. Written 10/2012
Alright, maybe I have changed.
I don’t spend my time relating my life to a soap opera anymore.
I’ve realized my life is what I make it (yes, a Hannah Montana reference -.-), and I have made it extremely complicated these past years. Now that I have ‘grown up’ and I’ve seen and experienced more things, I can set my mind on where ever I need it to go.
Insider: You do realize that by writing this you’re just making everything a inner conflict with what you don’t want to think about, right?
Myself: Yes. Yes, I do.
I challenged myself to be social, random, interesting; all for the same reason I’ve always wanted to be that way: to be accepted.
Well, guess what? Congratulations! You’ve just been accepted by the 1000+ people you’ve ever met! Now what?
You don’t speak to them, you don’t see half of them, you barely like ¼ of them, and you envy at least 1/100 of them. But then again your focus is only on one of them; or in this case two.
And of course, this one person you focus on is a douche. Yes, yes, you won’t realize this until your phase is over, but accordingly, yes, he is nothing but a big douchebag. ‘Why?’ you ask? Let me just take you on a ride to your past…
Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind
DONE!
How was that? Was it refreshing enough?
Alright then, back to the douche.
McJerk just walks in, says something nice, walks away, destroys all hope possible, you move on, it comes back with excellent news, all hopes are restored, you lay as many cards as you can, it doesn’t like your hand and POW! It strikes out with 4 motherfucking aces right in your face, and you send the world to hell.
Story of my goddamn life.
It’s like I prey on these events to happen to me over and over again, like if I were an addict.
But I’ve grown, I say, how is it possible?
Alright, maybe I have changed.
I don’t spend my time relating my life to a soap opera anymore.
I’ve realized my life is what I make it (yes, a Hannah Montana reference -.-), and I have made it extremely complicated these past years. Now that I have ‘grown up’ and I’ve seen and experienced more things, I can set my mind on where ever I need it to go.
Insider: You do realize that by writing this you’re just making everything a inner conflict with what you don’t want to think about, right?
Myself: Yes. Yes, I do.
I challenged myself to be social, random, interesting; all for the same reason I’ve always wanted to be that way: to be accepted.
Well, guess what? Congratulations! You’ve just been accepted by the 1000+ people you’ve ever met! Now what?
You don’t speak to them, you don’t see half of them, you barely like ¼ of them, and you envy at least 1/100 of them. But then again your focus is only on one of them; or in this case two.
And of course, this one person you focus on is a douche. Yes, yes, you won’t realize this until your phase is over, but accordingly, yes, he is nothing but a big douchebag. ‘Why?’ you ask? Let me just take you on a ride to your past…
Eternal Sunshine Of The Spotless Mind
DONE!
How was that? Was it refreshing enough?
Alright then, back to the douche.
McJerk just walks in, says something nice, walks away, destroys all hope possible, you move on, it comes back with excellent news, all hopes are restored, you lay as many cards as you can, it doesn’t like your hand and POW! It strikes out with 4 motherfucking aces right in your face, and you send the world to hell.
Story of my goddamn life.
It’s like I prey on these events to happen to me over and over again, like if I were an addict.
But I’ve grown, I say, how is it possible?
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